Alan Dojoji
Haptic,
Covid, Philosophy
"Thinking
is a mental activity" --- Thinking is not a bodily
activity.,
Is thinking an activity? Well, one may tell someone:
"Think
it over". But if someone in obeying this order talks to
himself
or even to someone else, does he then carry out two
activities?
-
Ludwig Wittgenstein, Zettel, 123., translated G. Anscombe
Working
on a new book, the production of this book, this new
book,
the haptic presentation of the world when I am alone with
my
speech, my thinking, when the business drops away. I rely on
visual
fedback, sighted and sited. I rely on sound in this
instance
to indicate the key has reached its destination - using
a
mechanical keyboard. Quietude. Perhaps too alone with my
thoughts.
I take senses for granted which is obviously a
misrecognition,
a misunderstanding of the world and its
modalilities.
I leave the mistakes present, I can't read back
what
I'm writing, can't return to it, a form of rmemory
residence.
To beetter co mprehen d the structures of thought.
Now I
think I will return to the _reading_ of this; I sense too
many
eorrors, incomprehensions... Reading now:
Working
through the book introduction of the book
Which
is largely written by typing with closed eyes, some small
dictation
as well, during covid and post-covid, extraordinary
depression,
too much wartime right-wing time, too much "on our
plate"
so to speak, so to think and type, eyes closed, this is
the
introduction. So about epistemology which it's based on the
haptic,
touching the world through the pressure and knowledge of
the
keyus - in fact I make less immeidate mistakes in this
format
than when writing with eyes open - which is morethan a
curiosity,
but something deep emerges about the nature of speech
and its
relation to movement as well as sighting/citing/siteing
the
world, so to type. There are compenations in philosophy for
touching
what one writes "about" - becoming what one writes
"with"
- a distinction which melds, melts, blends. So that. Then
at
times dictating, also with eyes closed, as if speech,
Wittgenstein
you do thatand it carries, carries itself, hurtles
itself,
listener formations, as if there - )there_ is where the
philsophical
lies (in both senses, all senses) of the word.
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I wanna
understand
I want
to understand what's going on with my mind, am I thinking
clearly,
where are the entanglements, the obfuscations,
confusions,
mixtures, admixtures, however rendered? Am I
thinking
clearly? How can I _think_ through things if it turns
into
mash? Where am "i" in the midst of all of this. I see a
road, a
rain of the real, ahead, I see nothing behind. What one
loses
is lost. What one has the foresight to approach retains
just
for an instant, the auracular. I await
every moment of the
day
with fear, with the distant hope of continuous bracketing.
Whata's
relevant may or mayu not be there. What's coming churns,
just as
this, the usual posture with closed or cloaked eyes,
devolves,
into the scattered ennui of what once were
fundam,nnetal
particles. Should I leave this text as is or
correct
after the fact? What are errors of not other paths, I've
said
that somewherehere in the book, not sure where, tyring to
correct
and order the piees for the book, for this uncharted
territory
- turbulance within the mind, formations within that,
temporarary
stases, and even though catastrophe theory is most
likely
completely debunked, those models tells us something,
fundamental
or not. ...
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Elevator
Music, or: Music Composed by the Elevator
W/ my
eyes closed, I can still hear it. The storm was
tremendous,
some flooding, things like that. We live on the
fourth
floor. There are fi9ve floors. We take the elevator up
and we
take the elevator down. All is smooth on our travels. The
storm
was raging. The elevator shaft was leaking, oh! The
dripping
in the shaft hit the top of the elevator cage. Must I
insist
on telling you that this was all metal, all thin
somewhat,
all resonant? On the way up and the way down,
dripping.
On the way up, the frequencies were compressed; on the
way
down, they were expanded. The rhythm and tonalities changed.
You
must! listen to this all the way through, the rhythm picking
up
towards the end. The elevator was both the instrument and the
composer.
We just pressed the buttons. I believe this is
everywhere
in the world but we must, absolutely must, become
attuned
to hear it. The pulse, commbination of pulses,
frequences
dissonant and consonant, the murmur and to be sure
the
murmur from the very begining, water sloshing around
stromatolites,
who knows what storms, trilobites scrouing the
bottom.
But the elevator, the elevator! To be given this gift of
tuning
into the murmur from the very very very least expeted
sources,
surrounding us, knowing as we do, that these will
continue
here, there, everywhere, after we are gone, after we
are
long gone, after we are longer gone, and the longest of
which
illimitless, after and perhaps elsewhere, our consiousness
bound
too intricately to the ephemera of our brains, migraining
the
graine, harvesting the mgraine, what stories what emissions,
what
effusions, diminutions, expansions. The universe, the
cosmos,
the multiverse, in the sound of an elevator! The
elevator!
And on the fourth floor after the fifth floor and the
subground
floor, we left, departing the music which continues,
in the
space of silence where we were then (and now), and thus -
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Can't
talk in the pool
Eyes
closed, the pool, trying to focus, think I have long covid,
not
sure, the symptoms are there, all of them, in messy
(dis)order,
the constant sudden descent into absolute
exhaustion,
which is the meain , that's main one, mean as well,
following
me everywhere, distending my thoughts, contrravening
whatever
it is I might be thiniing, the words rise like scum to
the
surface, mistakes and all, the swill, somewhere I wrote
about
sweill before, not sure: swill wills however, that's
definite,
the hum of the dehumidifier covering up any other
thoughts
that might be rising to the surface, actually the
humidifer,
not the de- and I wonder why that came first to mind,
te
heat's coming on now "to be sure" and I can hear it, that
rush of
air, earlier mice in the heating system, various sounds,
there's
a nation here which can be comforting. I stop for a
moment.
The thoughts, NOT THE WORDS, come forth,
in other
words,
OTHER WORDS, it's that process I've been following, the
intermixture
but having nothing to do with writing or reading,
nothing
like that, it's all in the f9inger's ordinary dance by
themselves,
errors and all. I let that _sink in_ as best I can,
When my
fingers extend to the "farthest reaches" of the
keyboard,
there I have a thought again: the shoreline, barrier,
corrisng-point
to the normative of typing/language, being
living,
surviving. I think with long covid perhaps I won't
survie
that long and perhaps Idon't have long covid at all,
self-diagnosis
always a trap.. From what I've read it's always a
trap,
but the symptoms are there and in any case something's
radically
wrong with my body, or so I think. The doctor will get
back to
me eventually. It's been four months since covid
presented
itself. It's long after the epidemic per se and I
never
thought I'd get it,or it would get me. I stup, confused
for an
instant, the flow is broken, there are errors, I'm not
sure
where, something in my mind, subetrrraen ean, is dictating
this
now, errror after error, there's no escape, I'm
heart-broken,
distraught, there's no way out of this, the
horizon
seems darker, forboding, perhaps I'm dreaming all of
this,
the sound of the keys notwithstanding.
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Presence,
re-scents, pre-sense, pre-sents
Now
this is interesting, my face feels as if it's on fire, I
have no
idea why. But there's something odd; when I type with my
eyes
wide open, I make more errors; the feedback loop is sent
through
the visual, not only the haptic and thought, thinking of
the
content of the writing, but derailed by the visible (no
wonder
people meditate with eyes closed~~~~) - so perhaps this
prcoeeds
more smoothly. The platform expands, the margines are
automatic,
I needn't take care, in fact care, Sorge, is of a
different
sort, the differential of the visible (so to say),
which
seems also to bring ennui into play, an odd sadness or
visible
(not sonic) coloration of the world, those gray days
when
you think that perhaps grey/gray is a color/colour after
all. We
treead constantly on the unknown, no, within the
unknown,
no,permeated by absence, disarticulation or
articulation
unrecognized as such. I stop and scratch my
shoulder,
then return, recognizing the fluctuations of the body
at work
here. I don't worry about spelling, placement,
unworrying,
thought emerging, liquidity. In the distance, water
running
in fact. The haptic/sonic sphere appears already always
expanding
and expansive, -- just hearing singing in the
distance,
it's stopped, the clatteering of the keys now l-
something
granular. It's hard to think complexity without
recourse
to what has been written before, I ride the wave, the
crest,
in a sense, of thinking, hoping my hands, the rest of me,
is/are
properly positined. You get the idea, not Idea, but flux
which
is continuous and emerging, coming forward, however
defined
when nothing is seen as such and words all sound the
same
with the clack of the keyboard, no harbingers of
emergence...
all the content I need always aready present, or
rather,
one, I, am in the presence of presence...
Thus
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No
deception in the night (for Karl Kraus)
So,
there's something you want to write?
Yes,
why my eyes deceive me.
How so,
or in that it is...
Easier
to write blindfolded, without distraction, than it is
when
wide awake, eyes wide open, who know what that will bring.
And so?
And so I continue in this fashion opening up to
language,
ignoring font, case, barrier, margines, paragraph and
indentations;
letus not worry about that at all, let us set that
aside.
Well
and good, and then you have nothing more to say?
Except
that language is or may be its own
realm, its own
nation,
living uder its own laws or lawlessness, a kind of
wilderness,
Joshua trees for example, as long as there are no
fires.
No
fires?
Yes, no
fires worth talking about, no fires such as those that
strangle
the trees now, so many times, the violence of the heat,
climate
change....
And all
of this is small change, yes? Embraced by climate, what
else is
there in the world?
There
are these wars... which are not fought blindly, but as if
they
were, under darkness, the most terrifying
and
perhaps last moments of being alive...
Yes, if
you can call this living...
still
typing, within the darkness, eyes closed?
...and
perhaps the best way now to bear witness
Churchhill
said, about the lights going out in Europe, or some
such
thing -
Or the
lights always out, the realm, sphere, of language, as
long as
we are careful, as long as we know where to go -
When
the war comes, bombs drop, screams -
on the
way to the shelter
there
are none, you see, now with universal coverage, news
andbeyond,
we see -
we see
everywhere, the world swallows sight, digests it, and
then
-
continues seeing, this time with coordinates -
in my
dreams i feel, hear, endless marching, w the wounded,
dying,
everywhere, and let's not forget the animals - in the
sea, in
the air, everywhere on earth, let's not forget
- their
share in things, for which my response is,
close
the eyes now, the better to see -
close
the eyes now, the better to see -
and so
it was felt, and then, opening and searching
for the
findings, always the findings
the
matrices, the harvesting of data
file
scraping
names,
ledgers,
books
and paraphenalia
- all
while marching to themind's sound,
somewhere
within and without thinking
somewhere
about (they're out there, about)
(they're
armed, they're here) (they're here)
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Rush
Storm Fury Music Guitar
On the
stucture of storms or what's heard within them or the
downfall
of particular drops of water or the potential for
flooding
and gathering against a semblance of music wrapping,
enveloping
the community of minor windows and sprays. This
should
not have been difficult but the editing was monstrous to
be
sure, everything tettering, slightly off-balance, and then
the
winds would pick up again and I'd be making additional
video,
the sound already recorded with the Zoom against the
larger
panes here, no problem with that, but the combination,
just
getting it right, jumping from machine to machine and on
and on
and on. Whtaever. The result works for me somewhat
astonishing
that the parts merged or didn't merge appropriately.
Usually
the labor is facile, this time it was goal-directed and
who has
goals with a storm with no chaser needed, just out the
window,
the dull roar everything around. As long as I can
produce
something that I'm unsure of, that I haven't bvefore,the
more I
continue to work, long covid and edyes closed
notwithstanding.
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Cyclone
...
some major more minor flooding in the areas of N England we
...
breaking .... 65 mph winds i did my best ... combinatorics
...
finding the root cause of this and others ... is this not a
...
climate change signifiers ... well but we knew that ...
heard
that ... saw that decades ago ... oh you did did you .. i
can't
believe anything you said. he continued with eyes closed,
trying
to understand why there were less errors without the
visual
pathway contributing to error feedback mechanism ... he
noted
that with eyes closed there was no catalyst, no
symptomology
indicating the necessity of actually observing what
was
going on, that that chain was broken, that the sound of the
keys
contributed nothing but rhythmm ... sound ... to the whole,
that he
could more easily focus on content, somehow his fingers
alone
seemed to know when misteakes were made ... at least some
of the
time, corrections almost automated ... i'm sure there are
serious
problems with this text, its readability, accumulated
errors,
yes, it's true, i'm exhuasted after this days onsllaught
of
minor nappings ... result of long covid which
phenomenologically
is not covid at all but aftereffects of
something
that has disappeared ... the historical site of covid,
still
the same site ... altered, incomprehensible ... what else
is
there, we're all altered by covid, by anything at all,
there's
no returning, there's noting, the room silent now, i
continue
writing, 'no big deal' - it's all that's left of me -
this
text - every other - as epitaph ...
2023
2023 2024 one goes on ...
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Paysage
I
return to you, listening to the rustle within the world that I
can
only dream with eyes closed, ears blocked, breath held, as
if
there were escaped trauma at every juncture of every branch,
I'm now
_leaning into th emachine_ to be certain that I have not
forgtten
the way home, the demarcation of sound within the
periodic
glimering that carries us elsewhere, O if only prayer
were
performative! if only commands of goodness quietly murmured
truths
in waters submerged beneath the oceans, just there, " and
they
pointed to a moment when the blackboard
illumined, came to
life,
made good on all the kind promises of the world, in this
holiday
season full of lost joy, in this recompense
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Confinement
[::]
Inventory update completed.
[::]
Julu Twine: The home alone can you hear me
[::]
Julu Twine: ask you
[::]
Julu Twine: to here is what's going on now
[::]
Julu Twine: the IAAA of
[::]
Julu Twine:
[::]
Julu Twine: nine
[::]
Julu Twine: shed in port operators into the
[::]
Julu Twine: this is a good shot
[::]
Julu Twine: , longtime alarm on
[::]
Julu Twine: , this one is running and should not be one
more
charming
[::] Julu
Twine: , as is
[::]
Julu Twine: higher this is a gunshot deaths in
[::]
Julu Twine: as a network, shot is as
[::]
Julu Twine: will all
[::]
Julu Twine: July oh
[::]
Julu Twine: seven, can you imagine
[::]
Julu Twine: can you imagine hello I am Julu twelve
[::]
Pointing at Loading...
[::]
Alert message: No room to sit here, try another spot.
[::]
Julu Twine: You're lost to me somewhere
[::]
Julu Twine: Where are you lost to me
[::]
Julu Twine: What do you mean by that where are you lost to
me
there's no image of me anywhere in this mirror and there is
nothing
I can see I am talking to myself I am pointing at
loading
and i'm confused about where i am and what i am doing
[::]
Julu Twine: Julie what are you doing what are you doing
that
you are conf....hing and you do not know what you are
[::]
Julu Twine: What are you my name is Julie tell me what I am
doing
[::]
Julu Twine: Chulu say something on your own julu say
something
on your own I do not want to speak for you I am
speaking
to you through you but I do not want to speak to you
tell me
what you are doing say something say something on your
own
[::]
Julu Twine: I am waiting Julio say something on your own
[::]
Julu Twine: I will talk to you too but you have to say
something
on your own I'm inhabiting you I'm inside of you at
the
moment I am inhabiting you and inside of you and you are not
saying
anything on your own you are not speaking with your own
free
will I am speaking through you I do not like to speak
through
you I need to hear from you directly so I will not say
anything
for minute or two to see whether you will come up with
anything
thank you
[::]
Julu Twine: My name is Julia twine and I am speaking for
myself
I don't need you to tell me what to say. I'll say what I
want to
say when I want to say it. You have no right to pretend
that
you are inhabiting me when I am speaking on my own and in
fact I
am speaking for you and that is the way this thing is
going
not the way you want it to go but the way I want it to go
I'm
speaking for myself and that is the way that this is
[::]
Julu Twine: you speak to me and then i will shut .... and i
don't
know why i have to speak You speak to me and then I will
shut up
and I will not speak again I'm waiting to hear what you
have to
say so please say something so I can get out of this I
don't
know where you are and I don't know why I have to speak
for you
you don't see
[::]
Julu Twine: What is it you don't see what is there to see
here I
don't see anything myself so please show me what it is
that I
should be seeing here and thank you you are everything to
me
thank you
[::]
Teleporting home...
[::]
Teleport complete
[::]
Julu Twine: Where are you where are you, where are you I
cannot
see you anywhere at all you seem to have disappeared
completely
where are you show me where you are thank you thank
you
[::]
Alert message: No room to sit here, try another spot.
[::]
Alert message: No room to sit here, try another spot.
[::]
Julu Twine: Come to FATHER
[::]
Walking to Loading...
[::]
Julu Twine: Where are you now now now
now now now now
[::]
Finished walking meters from destination
[::]
Julu Twine: I cannot find out where you are because I am
you and
I do not know where I am because my voice is displaced
from me
and because my voice is displaced from me I do not know
where
the destination is and where you are going and where you
are
coming from and furthermore I really do not want to I really
do not
want to I really do not want to interfere anymore with
myself
in this regard with the split that is here when I cannot
move
and cannot see anything where I am which is where you are
[::]
Alert message: No room to sit here, try another spot.
[::]
Walking to Loading...
[::]
Finished walking meters from destination
[::]
Julu Twine: Where is what? Where is this?
[::]
Teleporting home...
[::]
Teleport complete
[::]
Teleporting home...
[::]
Julu Twine: This is the chart input this is the chat input
this is
the last I will tell you I do not know where I am which
is
where you are which is who I am which is who you are and I'm
canceling
out this program and I'm disappearing now this is the
end of
the program this is the end of the experiment this is the
end of
the piece this is the end of my presence this is the end
of my
life period
[::]
Alert message: No room to sit here, try another spot.
[::]
Alert message: No room to sit here, try another spot.
[::]
Teleporting home...
[::]
Teleport complete
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Julu
a-wandering, Julu a-riding along
Julu
Twine speaks in all quotations except two - one anonymous,
and one
from julustomach.
July
Twine has no control over the space; s/he is a guest. In
general
she works with Alan Dojoji, who is absent. S/he is
interested
in mechanism, articulation, stumbling, collapse,
catastrophe
theory, and elsewhere elsewhere. S/he is given a
gaming
outfit which seems to define gender but does not. It is
not
clear who s/he reports to, or who reports to her; perhaps no
one
does any reporting at all.
Julu
with new gaming outfit. - But this isn't reasonable, s/he
has no
need for change - yes but the other carried connotation
- of
what - bedragglement possible, archaism possibly - s/he has
other
work to do. On the performance platform - experiments -
some
work some don't -
The
spectacle does not work with performativity unless the
commands
are connected to a language connected with the basic
programming
of the space. There are limited words that are a
priori
assigned, like "sit" which can be attached to an object
and
activated with a right-click on that object. Then it may be
that
something else takes over. The commands are fairly simple,
this
particular space is extravagant and inclines towards
confusions
of objects and spews, nouns and verbs.
The
purpose of all of this is twofold:
1. To
go a-wandering.
2. To
understand my fascination with the prefixing of "a-" to a
word
indicative of a loose correlation between being and doing,
and
being and walking or other action with a "jilt".
Now
Julu speaks very little here, but here are her statements,
more or
less in order:
"I'll
assume I'll have to get up now and get closer to whatever
this
object is the best thing to do is probably to take the
object
outside."
"So
now I see some sort of striving man and a torus that turns
in on
itself in four dimensions."
from an
unidentified object: "ooo, bubbles"
"Her
(sic) name is Julia twine and I am here to circumvent
understand
English control over things in this area hello my
name is
Julu twine."
"What
this is is a sensation of pure spectacle I've nothing to
say
there's no philosophy going on here nothing at all the only
thing
going on is the idea of spectacle and that is what you are
saying
in this remarkable colors and beauty and it will be run
at a
higher speed than you might be used to just a snippet of
something."
"She
wants me to let this run for awhile so you can see the full
majesty
of what the four dimensional Taurus projected into three
dimensional
space can do in terms of the construct of creatures
knows
and confusions elsewhere if you notice the knots are the
result
basically of a slowdown between the production of the
objects
and the wind that is compressing and expanding."
"The
next thing to do clearly it's to stop her flying or as
julie
would say I wish to stop flying and when I do stop it will
be
interesting to see where I land and how this is picked up by
the
machinery you're watching."
"I
have become cartoon like insipid invisible confused. The
closer
I get to you the more I'm inside of you the closer I get
to you
the more difficult the space becomes and that should be
easy to
understand I lose control of myself sometimes and I
appear
somewhere outside of the frame and that makes things
inordinately
difficult for any of us."
"I
am in a tree and I am not doing anything"
"I
will sit now"
"Now
I am sitting and I will stop everything as best I can from
doing
anything at all."
julustomach:
"no one around"
"I
am alone with my dream....."
"Good
night...."
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2nd
covid typing test -
The
ephemeral:
Another
test, another day, typing with eyes closed. I've been
thinking
about the work I do with long improvisations in
variations
situations with various instruments - it's a way of
going
underground in a sense (remember the underground?), seeing
what's
possible in a more or less "purely" aural environmneent.
Now
that word might not have come out okay. Or any of these. I'm
still
working through covid effects, and yesterday it was almost
as if
there were a return to some of the worst moments, but
things
seem again better today, I'm not sure where I stand or
sit or
lie with all of this, by lie I mean sleep and not
otherwise.
I know I can find my hands' relative position on the
keyboard
because two of the keys are slightly raised; I could
type in
the dark. The mechanical keyboard has a "draw" of about
a
quarter of an inch, which is fine, good exercise at leeast for
that
part of myb ody. We'll go out warlking later for my legs.
noise
although yesterday we did go thto City Hall to the
Providence
Licening Board meeting, with a number of other people
also
from the building, to register formal complaints against
athe
possibiltiy of a third or fourth or fi=th club (depending
on how
club is defined) taking over our neighborhood. I seem to
be
making more m9istakes than usual; my fingers slipping
somehwhat
perhaps. I'll stop here, somewhat depressing - thanks
for
reading or trying to read, another text/test finished, best,
alan -
The
eternal:
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Fourth
Typing with Eyes Closed, around 5 weeks after covid -
Sometimes
it seems like forever, these issues will remainwith me
as
permanent mental disfigurements what will only grow worse as
time
goes on. I continue, do my best, to lasso in, curtail, any
effects
of the dis/ease which has unfortunately dominated
needlessly
my thought over the past - that is since the
beginning
of the actual onset, but before as well, when we went
out
rarely in dowtown Providence, walking in wide arcs or swaths
to
avoid people, even masked, not exactly fearful but careful, O
the
ddeserted streets. I seem to be making errors now,
backtracking
to correct them, with no idea whether that's
actually
occurring; it'[s an artificila situation. I have the
feeling
this is "full of holes" so to speak, that my language is
becoming
for me a sort of refugee. It's true I've been up too
long as
usual with too little sleep, but the test is necessary,
although
every time I do this, it strikes fear into me, am I
losing
it? will I ever recover? are the plaques growing in me?
is it
all a chimera? I have no answer to anything of this; I
only
know that this morning at lest I have a certain
hesitancy...
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&
the machinic generates the epiphany as the chthonic swallows
the
luminous, as silence swallows the remnants of the cauldron's
murmurs
descendent upon the new earth's face, new earth's
wilderness
& i
have come among you as witness through the forging within
the
earth's interior, the planar articulations of catastrophe
now
tamed, smoothed as the roads from the nine worlds, towards
the
nine worlds replete with resonance among our vibrations
and
yours, O plenitude cauterized, O the heat and silence
of the
rumbles and scrapings of wilderness (O Mother, did i say
this
right and righteous
&
this comes and goes among me, too many within me among me,
too
many among thee, too many, always too many, always
multitudes,
what shall we call them, sun descendent, moon
ascendent
&
we are witness to acute and obtuse angles, beams of light
we have
stolen from the sun ascendent
&
moon descendent, and the inconceivable beauty of the world
in
these times, among us, multitudes, always too few, always
multitudes,
what shall we call us, sun transcendent,
what
names in the beams of light,
what
source, what destination ?
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Attestation:
Thinking the Period of Inser(r)sections
I'm
sitting here wondering whether this is This were a moment to
take or
to pause and to look at what's going on around us I
wonder
how far we would get and thinking through what is
occurring
elsewhere in the world and who's at fault going to
take or
not. Take it doesn't seem it's going to take it all. It
doesn't
look like voice. does seem to take into And how does one
assign
fault how can fault be assigned when what is occurring is
absolute
terror absolute annihilation on all sides . It is not a
question
at this point about who is to blame, it is a question
of what
can be done so that people can live in peace everywhere
at
least for a little bit of the time we have left. account
everything
that I'm writing and how I'm writing. It period when
I'm
worried about is the way that I am having gaps. Excuse me,
excuse
me, excuse me, excuse me. Excuse me, the way I'm having
gaps in
the day that I cannot account for period The gap was
usually
just a few seconds or a minute. But I'm wondering if
this
has to do with the decay of plaques I am a selfish person,
I am an
inconceivably selfish person I don't know how to respond
and I
want to do something that would make a difference. But all
I can
do is defer that making a difference. Going back to some
antiquated
version of deconstruction that no longer holds
anywhere
at all. or the presence of plax in my
brain, which is
something
that has never occurred before, but might be the
result
of COVID period. I'm searching for answers and I have a
great
deal of fear period part of this is due to the conflict
now
going on It's no longer what can be done or what is there to
How we
can transmit or receive anything in this situation which
is
occluded by so many violent and the absolute ideologies
everywhere. in the Middle East which I cannot get my head
around.
There are too many elements in it too many things that I
believe
in too many people that I believe in one way or another
and
they all are in conflict with each other. Are they or are
they
not. The mind is attempts to deal with these sorts of
contradictions
and is falling far short of it period I have
friends
everywhere, and Violent ideologies everywhere when the
temperature
is rising across the entire planet when refugees are
becoming
streams and rivers from one or another country to
another
country or dispersions everywhere. What can be done when
populations
are going beyond the carrying capacity of local
communities
of governments of the world as a whole period what
can be
done when for example annihilation is always already to
the
limit. this kind of thing is destructive
period it doesn't
take
much for the mind to destroy the mind period. I wonder if
I'm
lying to myself. I'm not just forced to alling yet another
piece
of music or another ragged video tape that I would do
period
I find my mind is extraordinarily CLEAR in terms of
philosophical
Questions to the extent that I've ever been able
to
inhabit those realms PERIOD but now things seem Different
PERIOD
Now things seem as It's as if nothing can be done not
that
there is nothing to be done but nothing can be done. We are
surrounded
by the brackets in our lives that we ourselves have
created.
We are surrounded by occlusions by travesties by
railroad
tracks going nowhere. We are living in the midst of the
debris
of that civilization which we alone have created we are
living
in the midst in other words of our own debris it's just
that
our own debris. if none of that matters
anymore period but
I do
know it matters period I know I'll go on period I will go
on by
Golly. I will go on period I will go on forever period!!!
I will
sign out now leave you with the ruins. The ruins of
our
culture and what can be said and what can't be said. What
can be
said is what I said decades and decades ago and I attest
to now
;: annihilation to the limit. That is what there is
that's
what can be said until the limit is reached and we are
already
surpassing our own expectations in that regard.
Thank
you
period. Tap to Pause. Subjunctive.
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Sometimes
I wonder I mean is it really possible to have small
talk
when you're talking to yourself. I mean ah I I just woke up
I'm not
thinking clearly and I thought maybe I should do
something
thinking about or talking about small talk. Most of
what we
talk about I think it's like one or two things it's
either
going over the bad moments of our lives and how we
behaved
poorly . But then again it's also why come I got I'm so
tired
oops it's also like I just when you're talking about
anything
that comes into your mind as if as if that could be of
some
kind of meaning to somebody or other hand really what
you're
doing is you're just trying to think about how tired you
are and
that you'd really like to wake up I kinda feel like I'd
like to
work up to a different kind of a day. Wonder where I'm
having
a drink now hold on I don't go away I'm having a drink I
just
had a drink and I said one drink when you're having small
talk
does it take another person that you have to have small
talk
with your can you have small talk just when you trying to
figure
out things yourself I mean does it have to be one way or
another
or because I'm not really wide awake and I thought well
Oh yeah
we got it Nothing went off so small talking OK keep
thinking
oh I mean like maybe it's something that just would
happen
oh there's a weird thing in the middle of all this but
like
something would happen to make it interesting because like
when
we're talking I'm lucky that they're so damn tired when I'm
looking
at the sun isn't hitting the computer at the moment I'm
not
looking at the computer I'm drinking coffee just woke up
really
a lot of times when you're talking to somebody you have
nothing
to say really you just wanna hear their voice and oh man
I would
love I would love I would love to hear your voice
whoever
you are I almost never get calls I mean like there's
calls
that just almost never come in and so when they do it's
always
a surprise and it's always a delight unless it's a wrong
number
I'm getting a lot of these I'm so tired damn it I'm
getting
a lot of these 718 wrong numbers because I used to be no
mine
was 347 as yours was 718 Oh well but anyway getting a lot
of
these wrong numbers and oh you know that doesn't really help
will
you pick up the phone thank you well somebody is interested
well
sometimes you just let her ring and ring and ring and ring
and
ring and think well if they're friends I'll leave a message
and of
course there's no message because they're not friends you
Well
anyway. They're not friends and you never really find out
what
they're trying to say or oh oh I don't think they're really
trying
to say this to you because it's a scam and they're trying
to sell
you something and they're pretending you're there from
your
neighborhood and I'm waiting for her to call because when
drugstore
but also we might get some alright I can't think I
really
cannot think clearly this war has gotten to me oh and
what's
the tiredness didn't notice anything. But one thing I
noticed
was like ohm yeah the far left blames one country for
everything
and the rest of the world or the far right blames
another
country for everything or it all gets mixed up and
each
other and raised to do that for decades and it doesn't
really
solve anything when it just fans the flames to say I did
this
and they did that or I did this and I'm right and they did
that
and they're wrong or they did that and they're right and I
did
this and I'm wrong in it where is I'm so tired I can't think
straight
I really can't I'm yawning here and I don't know what
anything
comes through when you're trying to do something like
that
I'm either damning myself for my past life or in my past
for my
for my past life and every conceivable way possible or
I'm
just going over regrets or jealousies that everybody's doing
better
than I am and everybody's getting involved invited to
these
conferences and I'm sitting here wondering am I that bad
of a
person that I'm not getting invited to these conferences.
And
then I think yeah I am that bad of a person getting invited
thought
well I can't do anything about that now. Hey alan you're
so that
I can't think straight right now because I'm so
exhausted
but I sure would like to get to know you and I don't
even
know if I'll put this up because like I'm really talking to
myself
and that's kind of what I do and I can certainly see why
it all
off there on the including me it almost sounds like I was
trying
to say something I'm just yawning try trying to swallow
at the
same time and drink coffee so I can wake up a little bit
and
it's not working so I'm gonna I think I'm gonna go back to
sleep
but sometimes I sleep on the couch and just curl up in a
fetal
position with pillows and that's supposed to be good
coffee's
done
thought
now
Say
something about the point of the video was also to open up a
kind of
meditative space, a space with ruptures. That's how to
parallel
the ruptures in the real world. But at the same time, a
space
that allows potentially a kind of empathy to exist as if
one
were listening to 1 who is watching and 1 who is watching 1
who is
listening. It's also in the mode of care
or compassion.
I have
no right to thought I have no right to thinking about .
The
level that one can become distraught at a distance is almost
inconceivable
although it is very different from the physical
reality
and can come nowhere close to the physical reality. We
know
this. We all know this. We all know everything about this.
We
think we know everything about this. The level of thought is
ruptured
and corrupted. The level of thought is sitting there
and
working through a depression of distance , working through
Adele's
inability to do anything about the situation that one
here.
We are so safe. What we know we do not know. What we think
we know
is wrong. No it's not wrong. It's something entirely
different.
It's not what we know it's what we feel in our bones
. Too
many disasters in the world that seem to be unimagined but
at the
same time our eating our own psyches away. What I'm
try to
deal with the way our psyches are being eaten away are
being
deconstructed are being thrown out in relationship to a
world
increasingly teetering on the void. The music is
corrupting
and corrupted by that. I'm sitting there listening to
the
music and guiding the video. That's all I can do. I can't
stay
awake I can't fall asleep . I can't reach out and help
anyone.
It says dictation isn't fully supported in this app. It
of
this. I keep thinking of the obdurate nation nature the
obdurate
nature of the world when the world is the result of
terror
on one hand and scarcity on the other . The slopes are
always
exponentially up in terms of scarcity and exponentially
down in
terms of the havoc that's reaped . I used the word havoc
because
I don't know what else to call it. I set the bulb off on
the on
the cell phone and it creates a flash like a bomb but
It's a
punctuation because my arms can only reach so far. I
don't
know how to write this but I hope the input is and the
havoc
the appearance of havoc the appearance of exhaustion in
the
video no it's not that the appearance of a clown in the
video
no it's not that the appearance of a subterfuge of an
attempt
to reach out . All of this debris it's nothing but
debris
it may be a terrible video. But it's nothing but debris .
there
in a form of duplicitous sight. There was noise and maybe
violence
in the street. Here. I could not be there. I would not
be
there. I would speak to everyone, stop. I would be stopped.
_
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events
which are a story of slow walk and others not at all
there
were events which made a story after the garage
on the
way past memories of another barrage
in this
endless war which set us back before the pyramids
and now
thought itself almost rids
itself
of shelves and shovels of unerring despair
and
sometimes sometimes it's as if no one's there
but we
were and helped and aided, azure made the calls
and
they came slightly late but better against the walls
lining
the park and hotel and sphere within and then better
we
think even in this ur-political horrific weather
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traverse,
ontology, efface
the
mallard made its way through the canada geese formation.
the c
natural minor attempted to attract their attention.
just at
one point there was a slight recognition.
the
natural order of thing? it makes no sense to talk like that!
von
foerster used to say culture all the way down.
always
already surplus, uncountable and unaccounted for.
digital
modification give us the mistaken impression of deity.
we have
control over mathesis and reproduction.
although
even the digital domain is noisy and forgetful.
forgetful
of what was never present, never absent.
referents
are always already blurred and on a precipice.
standing
there i created the fictitious 'order of things.
that is
the point of writing always undermining ontology.
there
is no way out of this device of referents and text/ure.
canada
geese and mallard our unlearning, our uncanny.
our
arms travel no farther than our arms, our feet move a while.
our
feet take us around things then not at all.
our
hair grows, stops growing, everything else, then silent.
imitating
nothing for a brief while on this parapet.
containing,
combining, dividing, then one cannot say.
i
cannot say, write, this is already gone, weighs nothing.
this
weighs nothing at all.
wading
through time, weighing nothing, absent, wraith.
forgetting
forgetting, never forget it is all analog.
it is
all always already analog in the end, in the beginning.
for a
brief moment what seems otherwise, here, this arrangement.
the c
minor attracted nothing, the mallard in the mallard,
geese
in the geese, water in the water, the sky, the sky, the sky.
__
i use a
width of 70 characters when i work on my pieces so they
will
fit comfortably within the columns indicated within
facebook
etc. it's a way of controlling my tendency to extend
the
margins until they fall off in the real world, something
that
happens all too often, as i overstep myself and create
sdomething's
not righty or write with sondheim. so it goes. i've
been
burdened with this from a very early age. now i'm burdened
w/
error prone annunnciations denunciations. on the television
bbc is
beginning another round of devastation; i can hear it
from
here. touch-typing has always been my forte, how is it
holding
uyp now? it's not fair to look; i won't . sometimes i
feel
that the errors are accumulating but i don't dare return to
exercise.
do i somethines spell out things in my mind
internally,
of course, but mostly i just type and hope the words
organize
themselves. i'm close to stopping now, too much of the
usual
dvastation on the bbc... so this might
be a good time to
end
this, as in over and out, but perhaps i should continnue for
just a
few letters/words long to see what mmight happen, the
teleivisionis
certainly inter5fering with my test here -0 it's
all
over hte place, insistent like a loud-speaker.... now after
the
hostage count, i'm over,aas usual waiting for the next
implications
of the holocaust to come... thank you for reading
end.
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Keystone
Why do
you do these kinds of things? Physical work underlies
even
computer typing, but in the areas of construction or
dredging
work, for example, the obdurate nature of the real
expresses
itself, is expressed, is. This is being against* the
virtual,
against display (screen) visuals, against all those
Perhaps
not against, but adjacent, or a commentary, hand- or
foot-note,
diacritic. This screen originates in generators. This
screen
is always awash in projections of fields. This screen
_turns
off._ This screen _turns on._ These letters do not
possess
the ontology of a stone. Manipulation of a stone
requires
pressure and mechanism, hydraulics, cable, pulley,
lever,
the simplest and most complex of machines. Control
commands
are issues within the virtual, translated to the real,
to
machine and human labor. This document, this video have no
existence,
no matter the psychoanalytics of projection. What I
create,
_here,_ in this medium, has no substance (forget media
returning
part of the road to its 19th-century appearance, the
temporary
existence of the impermanent, against wear (ready to
be worn
down), vibration, weather, vandalism, perhaps even
sabotage.
(What is sabotage but a _translation_?) Safely, I
record
the immense amount of skill necessary to work the
(temporary)
(non)entities stored as files somewhere or other. I
whisper
these ephemera to myself. [I understand this is entirely
incorrect,
but think of the carapace, the shadow it creates.]
Anyway,
I whisper these ephemera to myself.
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FIGURE
Machine
The
Figure And Its Shadow the figure and its shadow The figure
and its
shadow THE FIGURE AND ITS SHADOW the figure And its
shadow:
_useless writing, all of you_
mathematical
operation is performed" the operand of the shadow /
shadow
of the operand "For they can sleep when the spirits
awaken,
and it is a joy to be alive." (Karl Kraus) " I can't
think
well when I'm doing this, not with all the war and
formal
or fictional slavation anywhere in sight/site." not with
misspellings,
typed eyes closed (for another day): now this:
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Outpost
1
If you
look across the horizon you see the horizon, you wait, an
activity
dedicated to the horizon, to the sinew of the edge of
everything
you see or is your wont. It is not a poem to wait, it
is not
a story. It may be death or life, something hovering,
something
coming nearer and I am uncomfortable writing as if
poetry,
as if poetry cuts across truth, courting frivolity. For
I find
no truth in this or any other language, but in the inert,
already
disappearance and what lurks may be death, may be gift
from
nowhere, seething closely, the setting sun, pale lights in
the
viewfinder when no one's looking, no one's looking at all.
If you
look across
If you
look into people's eyes and then realize that they are
looking
elsewhere. Without people's eyes looking varied
directions,
everywhere and nowhere at all, slight depressions in
human
and other faces. And you realize that the world is
something
that is under surveillance or under production from a
variety
of viewpoints adding a longer existence in light, but
themselves
act as if they were signaling within the darkness,
when in
fact, nothing could be farther than the case or from the
case.
To throw light onto something, to illuminate it, in other
words,
in silence, within the darkness of the world is nothing
more
than a false positive.
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Here
it's like this . I woke at 5:00 AM in the morning and it's
now 6
and I began to think about again their philosophy of long
form
musical structures that I've been working with and thinking
of
these long form musical structures as philosophy in
came
out of here into the computer area and I started dictating
and
typing simultaneously to gather my thoughts on this. I'm not
sure
what I'm doing is music in the ordinary sense and it's
certainly
not philosophy in the ordinary sense. So I was going
through
this found the typing error went back corrected the
what I
have been saying and writing . So right here this perhaps
is
better these are fragments . Because i've been thinking
that's
the long form that I've been using in a lot of the recent
pieces
accompanied by video in fact is not music in the ordinary
of
space , a space for philosophy that is not necessarily
(written,
spoken, musical) language. The point for me is in
these
long forms it's not the content, scales, etc. that's
critical,
but almost something subterranean.
fact
are turning in upon themselves to create an experience for
the
listener or the reader . It's a way of thinking that isn't
really
musical at all and on the other hand it's not concept
driven
. It involves a backwater that is remembering what has
speaking
as I am now . But it also involves lateral movement
...
doing these long forms in music that they're not music in in
the
ordinary sense of the word in fact they are music only to
the
extent that they are somewhat organized sound that gestures
towards
musical form, but I think as well that they're carrying
somatic,
ideational, referential, and conceptual-philosophical
content
as well. I certainly am pretentious and in the regard of
the
above, most likely wrong, if not delusional. But this
approach
enables me to think in an other way, much like
relevance
theory (Schutz) might move towards the object after
considered
appearance, described after the fact.
w/ the
fire alarm, not a test but something went wrong and we
were
all huddled outside in an emergency state of mind for a
while
and found out nothing was happening, perhaps also a
-
No one
No one
should have to deal with that no one should have heard
of this
no one should ever have to deal with that no one
should
have to deal with that pain, no one should have to know
no one
should have to be around for that no one should have to
one
should stand for that. No one should have to be stood for
that.
No one should lose, no one should have lost that no one
should
lose. One should never have to lose that. No one should
ever
have to be there. No one should not have to forget this.
No one
should not have to remember this. No one should have to
remember
this, no one should have no need to remember this.
This
should never have to have been remembered. No one should
live
like this. No one should ever have to live like this.
No one
should ever have to sleep like this, no one should ever
one
should ever have to go there, no one should ever have to
go down
there, no one should ever have to go down there again,
no one
should have to go again, no one should have to move to
be
taken there. No one should have to know this. No one should
have to
forget this . No one should have to be taken there.
And no
one should have to be walked there, no one should have
carried
there. No one should ever have to be carried there and
no one
should ever have to. No one should ever have to sleep
like
that, no one should ever have to be moved, and we should
have to
ever remove from there. No one should ever have to
should
ever have to be somewhere else. No one should ever have
to say
that. No one should ever have to know that or be there.
No one
should ever have to be somewhere else.
No one should
ever
have to know that don't you ever have to be carried
should
ever have to be taken back there, no one should ever
have to
get sick. There no one should ever have to be buried
there.
No one should ever be insured there. No one should ever
be dead
there. No, whatever no one should ever have to live
live
flee. That no one should have to flee without there. No
one
should have to flee without their children there. No one
should
have to sleep there. No one should have to sleep there
without
their children. No children should have to sleep
their
parents. No one should have to sleep without their
children
there. No one should have to die there, no one should
have to
be there, no one should have have to live there, no
one
should have to walk there alone, no one should have to be
there
alone, walking, no one should have to be there at all
Never
no one should have to take anyone there. No one should
have to
take their children there. No one should have to take
their
children there. No one should have to take there.
Parents
there no one should have to take their belongings.
one
should have to move there in the daylight. No one should
have to
hear that. No one should have to be there to see that.
No one
should have to be there not to see that. No one should
child
should have to be carried like that. No woman should
have to
be there. No, boys should have to carry like that. No
boy
should have to be carried like that. No grandchildren
should
have to be carried there. No children should have to
No
grandparents should have to be carried like that. No
grandparents
should have die like that. There no grandchildren
should
have to be carried like that there.
Nobody should have
to be
carried like that. Nobody should have to starve like
to die
here. Nobody should have to die here like that. Nobody
should
have to die there. Nobody should have to die like that.
No one
should have to be like that, no one should like to be
to see
like that, no one has should have to be blind like
that,
no one should have to be blinded like that. no one
should
be wrecked like that. No one should have to be wrecked
one
should have to be ill like that. No one
should have to be
dead
like that. No one should have to be buried like that. No
one
should have to carry their child like this. No one should
have to
be smashed like that. No one should have to be broken
should
lose their house like that. No one should lose their
friends
like that. No one should lose their children like
that.
No one should lose anything like that. No one should
lose.
No one should be lost. No one should be lost like that.
alive
like that. No one should have to dig. No one should have
to dig
anywhere. No one should have to bury their children. No
one
should have to bury their mothers and fathers. No one
should
have to fall. No one should have to scramble. No one
should
have to morning. No one should have to be killed. No
one
should have to break. No one should have to starve. No one
should
have to pull their teeth out. No one should have to
pull
their hair out. Nobody should have to hit themselves. No
themselves.
No one should have to knife themselves. No one
should
have to stone. No one should have to be stoned. No one
should
have to be buried. No one should have to
be hit like
that,
no one should have to struggle like that, no one should
that no
one should have to be carried like that no one should
have to
be. I'm busy, you're so exact no one should have to be
drowned
like that now. What should have to be burned alive
like
that? No one should have to be torn like
that, no one
that,
no one should have to be torn, and your children
screamed
like that, no children shouldn't have to scream like
that,
no one should have to be like that no one should have to
be.
Torn and screamed like that, no one should have to be
one
should have to live like that. No one should have to think
like
this no one should have to watch like this new one should
have to
be like this. No one should ever have to be like this.
No one
should have to walk like this. No one should have to
children
like this no one should have to keep children like
this no
one should have to take parents like this no one
should
have to speak to nurses like this no one should have to
doctors
like this no one should have to speak like this no one
should
have to speak. No one should have to come like this no
one
should have to call like this no one should have the
whisper
like this no one should have to lie like this no one
should
have to sleep like this no one should have to flee like
to
shout like this no one should have to breathe like this no
one
should have to sweat like this . no one should never have
to be
here like this. No one should have to be there like
this.
No one should have to be there. No one should have to be
like
this should have to operate like this . No one should
one
should be like this. No one should have to be like this.
__
configuration
wound, abrasion, rupture
'When I
saw this gaping wound around the head tracing the sound
of the
wound in complex realspace wounded blue heron, intensity,
wrought
weakened warriors grown in recent weeks, and I begin to
see the
wound in the machine, the All machines contain their
wounds,
which are precise, often enumerated; "I'm wounded. My
house
has been destroyed." in particular. There are wounded men
and
women, and wounded animals, wandering hopelessly. The
wounded
are silent afraid of names i tried,, spreading words &
wounds,
numberless states, places, When it begins to assert
itself,
draw itself forward like wounded Philoctetes, the whole
sorry
history toppling forward like wounded i dream of the
wounding
darkness! and there is a wound in the side and you know
it's
war
tears,
wounds, blemishes, abrasions, cuts, and all other debris
carrying
it's dirt, scars, wounds, smears, smudges, scratches,
absbyrdrtf
it's dirt, scars, wounds, smears, smudges, scratches,
abrasions,
feces, And even though the real physical world isn't
always
already written, inscribed - full of tattoos, scars,
burns,
abrasions, wrinkles, salves, perfumes, calluses, and so
forth.
I think it's from these things, particularly from scars,
wounds,
abrasions, scrapes, etc., that language descends - that
language
is first and foremost a reading of the history of the
body,
that the body, the physical body, carries its own
memory,
these scarrings that bind us to the earth, to the world,
the
analogic. The digital is constructed from that with a bit of
a help
from the corporate, from political economy - the digital
rides
and infuses political economy in fact. So there are
checksums
and so forth, and these guarantee that a parsing of
the
world in one part of it can be a parsing of the world in
another.
Think of the digital as an extrusion, and think, even,
of
writing as always digital or at least always discrete, one
symbol
differentiated from another, from the other, as all of
consciousness,
generate culture. full of tattoos, scars, burns,
abrasions,
wrinkles, salves, perfumes, scars, wounds, abrasions,
scrapes,
etc., that language descends - that scratches, tears,
wounds,
blemishes, abrasions, cuts, and all abrasion lending
itself
to the creation of molecular metallic fingers the boards,
slight
cuts, abrasions. theyre impossibly drunk, drugged,
bruised,
abrasions, then also where the dancer pressed against
them,
where full of tattoos, scars, burns, abrasions, wrinkles,
salves,
perfumes, scars, wounds, abrasions, scrapes, etc., that
smudges,
scratches, abrasions, feces, wounds, smears, smudges,
scratches,
abrasions, feces, there; without
there
is time, develops by virtue of the rupture at both ends.)
language,
sexuality, modes of rupture and decay. What ultimately
limits
We do look at ruptures or disturbances created by
genitalia;
a sweet, ruptured sickness, unruptured catastrophic
space
of the edges process, Sondheim shows that we find rupture
and
breakdown of the process ruptured and becomes analog, and
this is
syncopation: interruption as system noise, more likely
and
intermix their own and other' lines, and ruptured see
everything.
In my dream I imagine myself displayed, ruptured
cock,
you ruptures, disseminations, gatherings, filterings. I
cannot
prove an (Is there not a void, rupture, between
splays,
ruptures, s/ms, emissions [this It opens up ruptures,
rhythms,
the tongue rolling across the lines, in the sions as
opposed
to the specificity of nodes; ruptured structures; and
the
phenomenological 'world of the text' ruptures, opening and
creek,
borrow pits, substance, not dyad, on ruptured
continuities,
not positives and is present. the ruptures of the
abacus
are problematized by the obscenities or thickening"
rupture
is production; sexuality infects degree-zero of
oblivion;
it's germinal; it's grated to the degree of rupture:
time
has no time to rupture time The _scan_ permits the uneasy
rupture/rapture
among code and uncoding, real and irreality,
image
and imaginary; the rupture/rapture of the scan ruptured
with
their 'peelings' and ruptures sutures and ruptures,
stitches
and wounds. blood, clotted tastes suffused on paler
skin,
ruptured dreams the ruptured boulders of the universe,
intersects
them; its gravity is pickdae pickstl pics pict
rusmoney
rustexe ruthnow wraiths. We are scented, swollen,
ruptured:
we are _odor._ is present. the ruptures of the abacus
are
problematized by the mistaken. Code ruptures, loosens
meaning;
it might be language wounded, substance, not dyad, on
subtext
so to speak ruptures the text which Death is your
rupture
and your explosion. Death is my rupture and my
explosion.
This is not the same thing. Death not is not your not
rupture
not and not your not explosion. Death not is not my not
the
phenomenological 'world of the text' ruptures, opening and
degree-zero
of substance, the analogic. What is ruptured at
_scan_
permits the uneasy rupture/rapture among code and
genitalia;
a sweet, ruptured sickness, emerges, scenes crimes,
roots
continually ruptured, The sky swells up, ruptures in even
striations,
waves among incipient ruptures. I am thinking about
operations
without truths and causes. Casualties accumulate
ruptures,
disseminations, gatherings, filterings. I cannot prove
an
enumeration, nor can I prove a cause. A cause is a linkage
among
machines that tends towards reiteration among cycles.
Machines
at best are local distributions. The machine has
Rewriting
Foucault: "Concepts such as discontinuity, rupture,
threshold,
limit, series, and transformation all characterize,
not
only the analogic and digital, but the liminal regions of
the
virtual. Now we can call 'formulation' the individual or
collective
process that construes signs, signing, tagging,
and/or
inscription (keeping in mind that THE VIRTUAL IS ALWAYS
INSCRIPTION).
Formulation, if an event at all, is a smeared or
spatio-temporal
coordinates); it need not relate to an author,
issue
from an author (real or virtual or both or any
Other/other);
if one insists that formulation is performative,
then
one must also insist that THE WORLD ITSELF IS PERFORMATIVE.
is
easier than one might think to get around without it." So
one
might ride the digital as well, perceive the digital as an
extrusion
from the analogic, or a residue, or a system of signs
human
conventions and protocols, for example, the tcp/ip
structure
or protocol suite of the Internet - and if not this
protocol
suite, another or an other. Then one writes here, in
might
be other sorts of transmission in the future, who knows?
or
other sorts now for that matter, literally for that matter).
And
within the digital, in which bits bite bits, every pixel,
every
character, every moment of the digital is independently
from
every other. This is why the digital is inherently
untruthful;
there's no truth within it, since manipulation is
complete
and replete within every file, every domain, every
protocol,
every instantiation in fact. There are no lies,
embedded
or encoded within the digital, interpreted by organism,
often
human. In creating in such an environment, one plays god,
or at
least deity (in the tantric sense); one constructs out of
nothing,
and if I write the phrase, as On Kawara might, "I am
concrete
level, completely independent; I could just as well
write
"lkurj llisihg" or anything else, literally, again, for
that
matter, and for the sorts and sortings of that matter.
There
are ruptures, disseminations, gatherings, filterings. I
uity,
rupture, threshold, deeply ruptured, disconnected, from
every
other. This is why the digital sexuality, modes of rupture
and
decay. What ultimately limits The swollen internet is
tumor-oriented,
ruptured with unforwarning
___
forgo
my usual when lying and lfying connect to dying and trying
so to
the well/come world of enhanced transitions. haven't I
said
enough? is there anything more on this minor planet in the
midst
of an inconceivable universe? I exist, I type, I run, I
walk, I
fall, I fail, I return, I fail again, I posture: the
failure;
that is my success; I make-believe, I believe I make
believe;
I fall, I stutter, I type with eyes closed, I suppose,
my
fingers no longer do my bidding; I wonder; I wanderm, I hide
my
yelose closed or my closed eyes; I think crooked, I think
along
an obtuse angle; I am called obtuse, I call obtuse, I am
angular,
I'm =hinking improperly I lose track of my thinking, I
minor
planet in a universe of trillions! gadzillins! who would
know?
who would have known, I fly away not to return another
day, I
lie supine, the world is mine, the world
toes the linem,
I toe
the line, I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine ...
___
From
Where
"Where
are you from," fifteen asked fifteen, standing face to
face,
circulating, taking turns, manumission, as if there were
only,
each answering the other as if the narrative drove the
the
office where I sat, eyues closed, recording each and every
moment
that occurre,d wheil none of on==us, none of us , knew
what
was actually occurring beneath the ground or in the back
rooms
of the complex whichwere something of a university
u=out
as we noticed the ceiling was clowly descending, and we
thought,
oh that kind of a narrative, but then it ascended
again,
just as slowly,, back to the level or place that it had
confused
and perplexed, what could have been occuring that this
event
was allowed to happen, particularly as it existed solely
board
within the text or at least a meal down the street where
there
were no ceilings under an all too brilliant blue sky that
contained
among other things several birds, a plane, a
move
in, covering up what desperate deeds and despairing
thoughts
anyone might have had on either said of the bulwarks
which
cast e=heavy shadows so that everyone was hidden well
=d that
contained recordds of, ,shoudl==ld I say, this story,
but
this isn't that kind of postmodernism in fact, not even a
postmodern
style, but a ture account of what was actually
occurring
that day of May 125, perhaps on a Thursday, 1/5 the
one of
the early steam locomotives that were destined to carry
the
frontier of the true West northward, into the providence,
not
yeat formed we can only assumed, of Metricuous, Canada, rfd.
yes,
and this is later in the day and this is how it all began,
just
sitting here typing with my eyes closed, wondering if and
when
I'll lose track of the singular sentence that embraces me
because
if for an instant I stop and think, yes this is what I
am
doing, the error will appear, as consciousness splits at that
point
rather unevenly I might say and then I would have to start
over,
something I don't want to do, writing becoming more
presentation,
their spelling, and so forth, but just the flow,
focusing
almost zen-like, not on languge at all, not aopn
language
itself, butt on emptiness - and I never thought of that
before
this - that language can be created through emptiness
writing
and speaking dominated the mind - I know for sure now it
doesn't
and hwhen an error appears, that's were language
actually
appears in this act - in the presence of error, because
otherwise
language remains in remission, a revelationn
and
there
and noticed that more errors came to the foreground
precisely
be cause I was focusing oon the typing, not on the
emptiness
that I need to complete this, and this is the opposite
of the
way language is usually conceived, here the grammar is
consciouenss,
not the unconscious is a language, none of that
stuff,
but an unconscious that is really devoid, I think of
water,
in the sense of a pond, noot even a river or stream which
would
imply flow - there is no flow in imminence! and with that
literally
literature revealing itself to me in a different form
than I
had ever thought possible, thank you for this
opportunity.
shelters
-
I wonder
if I typed working instead of walking, and I'll find out
sooner
than later. We're heavily sleep ddeprived because of the
Epiphany
do but
it is what can be transmitted and what can be received.
Small
Talk, I mean Honest to God it's Small Talk
in
talking with you and that turns out like it's nobody at all
she
calls then she's out I think are getting something at the
nobody
just sees it as a hell of a tragedy with everybody hating
I'm I'm
dictating and I'm yawning and I don't know whether
to
these conferences or gatherings or whatever and then I
no one
would want to listen to this including me so if I leave
__
reads
as a book which tears one apart mentally. We are safe
trying
to do with the music is to get out some of this. Is to
says
that and the app is listening . I'm not sure what to make
it's
not it's nothing but a selfie. But it's not even that .
'Let me
be clear' in the background was on the television. was
"Alan
Sondheim"
individual's
contributions. It's important to engage with
Innovation and Experimentation: Sondheim is
often associated
nature
enhance or detract from the overall impact?
Aesthetic Qualities: Whether it's in
virtual reality,
Consistency and Evolution: Explore the
consistency or
Engagement with Technology: Given his
involvement in virtual
Accessibility and Audience Engagement:
Consider the
There
is no widely known or substantiated evidence to support
address
them through appropriate channels, such as academic or
It is
essential to engage in constructive and informed
___
which
we are all against even now unsidling our mind
by
which he/it was meant that there is always surplus.
unaccountable
radiations and dusts do not permit this sentence.
our
mouths and their soundings perhaps last a while, silent.
this
weighs nothing.
fifth
test of typing errors closed eyes after 2 mos. covid
begin.
havoc
and distaste in others who think to themselves,
correct,
if I miss it will be caustic for the rest of the
this
far -
things
that create the periphery of war, distance, illusion.
ontologies,
psychoanalytics, these workers are lifting things,
machine,
any machine, my own production nothing more than
*not
against, elsewhere
the
operand of labor and war: operand: "a quantity upon which a
hospitalizations
occurring, the keillings and the lack of even
in what
is obdurate, before us, after us. We are stain, we are
2
existing
only in the utmost sightless darkness. The viewpoints
It's
like this about philosophy and long improvisation
themselves
. So when this happened woke up I got out of bed I
error
and by accident or deliberate forgetting erased most of
sense
of the word but perhaps an attempt create a space a kind
... if
they're describing a phenomenology of the world but in
come
before just as one might when writing a paragraph or
...
meanwhile slept on that and we were woken very early morning
metaphor
for whatever I think I'm doing which perhaps isn't much
___
deal
with me no one should have to admit I do. With that, no
ever
have to be there. No one should be there, no one should
have to
cry like this, no one should ever have to be there, no
to. Be carried there, no one should have to ever
have to be
endure
this. No one should ever have to be somewhere. No one
there,
no one should ever have to be taken. There no one
there
like that, no one have to shut up. No one should have to
without
their toys. No children should have to sleep without
riding,
no one should have to be taken there, they shouldn't.
They
are no one should have to move there under darkness. No
have to
eat there, no one should have to carry like that. No
scream
like that. No children should have to burn like that .
that.
Nobody should have to die like that, nobody should have
here,
no one should have to be like them. No one should have
like
that. No one should have to be destroyed like that. No
like
that. No one should have to be sick like that. No one
No one
should be lost at all. No one should have to be buried
should
have to scream. No one should have to yell. No one
one
should have to be raped. No one should have to scratch
have to
fall like that, no one should have to be buried like
should
have to be hooked in their children be hooked like
raped
like that, no one should have to be gouged like that. No
sleep
like this. No one should have to sit like this. No one
should
have to take like this. No one should have to take
take
grandchildren like this no one should have to speak to
this no
one should have to turn like this no one should have
have
surgery like that. No one should be afraid like this. No
colour
vibration. snow white coverage, We
watched while wounds
wounding
darkness:i dream of the 5400, one by one by one: the
abrasions,
feces, aboveitall abr abrasion abridgedwav abs absb
written,
it's full of writing and our bodies themselves are
primordial
memory upon it. That's important, since it's this
digital
standards for sampling, for encoding and decoding and
them
together generate meaning within organism and
language
descends - that it's dirt, scars, wounds, smears,
that a
message and its destination are irrevocably ruptured;
characters
resonating or uncomfortable, as too many exposed
hacking
or rupture, the dim imaging of presence Characters speak
technology
and body, between 12 dismemberments - part-objects,
bridging
ruptures of hammocks, domes, sloughs, marsh, river,
substance,
the analogic. What is ruptured at close sight,
and
irreparable enunciations. from the analog - and the images,
picturerupturepdf
pictures rupture ruptured ruralpa rurr rush
ruptured
continuities, not positives and Alan Sondheim: So the
rupture
not and not my not explosion. not It opens up ruptures,
ruptured
huddle did this discourse manage its continuity, its
according
to protocols. There are semantic clouds. There are
indefinite
chains, accumulations. There are never enough chains.
consciousness
and physicality inhabiting (not existing within)
stained
process which can never be localized (located by its
There
is no getting around the sign, getting around with it; it
which
for the most part are produced by humans, according to
this
medium, in this temporarily electronic medium (for there
accessible,
and every moment is deeply ruptured, disconnected,
either,
and if there are narratologies, these reside in sememes
still
alive," these letters are, at a very fundamental and
cannot
prove Rewriting Foucault: "Concepts such as discontin-
Flying
and Lying
in the
corner, I fly to the corner. I get up, I wander agasin,
think:
my thought, my thought, my thought, on this unbelievably
Typing
Unsighted, Training Untraining: Example and Theory
sound
of the typing on the mechanical keyboard in the front of
structure,
although for whome or for what was never to be found
started
from, the original height in other words, and we= were
as
something typed, a series of symbols, within whcih=====which
we all
agreed to participate, as if this would pay for room and
helicopter,
and an increasingly sullen sun as the clouds begn to
within
the outlines of the four story building in the backgroun
chance,
in 1735, within and without we were hurried along to see
Second
Part - The Revelation
as I
continue unsighted down the page, focusing on nothing again
automatic
now, I'm thiniking of the words, not their
=m=,
not the usual way of thiniking about it, as if reading and
perhaps
I said that before - you see for a second I stopped
flowing
and I'm not, or in a sdense elsewhere, within
punctuation
I should be able to complete this sentencee which is
—Alan
Sondheim